acidtears-.blogspot.com: The Best Damn Thing.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Music- Tomorrow's way-- Yui!

Greetings!
At the airport now, the keyboard feels extremely weird compared to my nice apple book. So I'll be leaving in an hour. Waha can't wait for movies galore! & there will be free snacks (whatever we want to eat)! Haha i can see Valerie glaring and drooling simultaneously.

Won't be able to use the net overseas, cos my laptop is rigged up to my home. When we touch down, we're immediately gonna start touring. Argh jet lag!

Will have a major posting spree when i get back and try to take as many pictures of sheep!

If anyone's going to Japan, pls contact me. Very urgent!

Okay I guess this s it. I'm gonna miss blogging and people's tags. See ya guys! Spend your hols fruitfully! (Start on homework, you slackers XP)

4:10 AM

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Bah, my flight is at 9. & it's freaking 11 hours! They better have all those nice recent movies. Speaking of which, I watched Borat! My 2nd R21 film. I don't think it should be given such a strict rating, more like M18 perhaps. It's very crude, but they aren't things teenagers don't know about already. Anyway, it was really really side-splittingly funny XD Especially the retired-retard part. It doesn't touch much on American politics so don't worry, it's not as boring as it seems. Borat is my new actor idol! That guy is so hilarious, even better than Mr Bean!

Anyway, I've been spending the day struggling at yoga class. This old lady managed to do the stretching thing while I couldn't. Ha but I beat her at the upside-down pose :D Don't know if I'm continuing.. I'm scared they will make us do splits.

Ooh I love J-pop/rock now! Not as crazy as Claire san though. I only like 2 jap singers, both female. Angela Aki and Yui (jap version of Avril?). Melodies in Jap songs are very nice and catchy :D But S'pore doesn't have a lot of j-pop cds as far as i know, mainly korean and ayumi hamasaki. ew.

Hope to meet Steffi at the airport! That girl's going to South Africa! So lucky. Hope she doesn't get eaten by a tiger. Touchwood! But she's leaving at 12, so I probably won't get to see her. Yay, party on the plane! But I'll spend my time watching movies, reading and podding.

Farewell all!

10:54 PM

Friday, December 22, 2006

Anyone interested in joining absoluteavril? preferably an html expert!

Anyway, I feel kind of unexcited now. No anticipation, no nervousness, not even a sense of dread (homework, duh). But I can't wait for horse riding & white water rafting! Okay, now I feel kind dumb for not going to class chalet. I said that I had to pack, which is true, but I could have packed later. I bet that if Jolynn was going, I'd immediately abandon my suitcases and go together with her. I'm such a coward. Nevermind, it's over and it seems like they had fun, from Baihui's lj. I promise to put aside all my classes and appointments to go for next year's.

The holidays this year have been rather .. lonely. I did get to go out with a lot of old pals which is fantastic cos I won't get to see much of them during the new school year. I think I've seen much too much of Valerie chewww already, we're both sick of each other. Also managed to see 3 classmates for 2 weeks, but it just wasn't the same. Who asked the nerds to go and pick Math? But I'm REALLY grateful to Jamie for persuading me to pick Expository! That woman rocks! & also, for making me quit Creative, so I was able to make a friend who I somehow feel will really keep in touch.

As for the homework department, well, we don't really need to go into that. But admittedly, I think I have accomplished a tiny bit more than my slacker friends.

Erm, this is going to sound stupid, but does songwriting involve knowing the notes/chords and stuff? Cos I think songwriting is really cool - just writing the words. If coming up with the melody is included, then I won't be able to pick up a new hobby. Heh.

Before I leave, I would like to go and urge you guys to read A home at the end of the world. by michael cunningham.Really really good book, but you will have to read between the lines a lot. I didn't understand a lot fo the symbolism, but it's very compelling with a fascinating concept, like Picoult's books but even better. Oh and check out Angela Aki, whose a Jap singer rasied in Hawaii, she has the most amazing voice!

Farewell! Shall eagerly await Death Note 2 when I come back :D

9:47 PM

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Once in a while, a truly touching song comes along. Okay i know this
one is like very ancient but well... we were listening to it during
farewell prep. For once, everyone quieted down and really got into the
music. Which is a lot to say for us since everyone was laughing at
bernice and zhuoxuan's crazy chindian moves. Argh I wouldn't mind
dancing this deranged dance! Blame my parents again. But i heard there
will be a party on the plane! whoohoo maybe i'll get a taste of
champagne! :DD Yay can watch all the recent movies!Sadly, they weren't
really touched by keep holding on. I made them listen to it but they
were unaffected, heartless creatures! Cloudie wasn't here so I was
quite lonely.. I miss cloudie! Ha hope she
gets my card when she comes back from china.

I wasted my effort on (most) cards. Ha but at least I got a few in
return and thankyous. I was expecting a lot of people to be sending
cards this year, but the turnout has been quite disappointing. I even
took the effort to write some poems and draw some (ugly) stuff for
people. But, afterall, it's the festive season of giving and I am a
nice, benevolent person :DD

I will miss a few seniors and their craziness. Guides is an irony. You
can't really show your affection for others as it's mostly strict and
they reinforce discipline. But whenever farewell comes round, everyone
starts crying and hugging. At the same time, I'm a bit relieved not to
bear witness to my bawling friends. It'd be quite awkward, c'mon i so
won't cry even though I will be sad. There will be those who cry their
eyes out. Hur. But I really will always remember several wacky, funny
seniors.

2 MORE DAYS to NZ! :D Can't wait XD Okay back to the homework list that so joyfully awaits me.

7:24 PM

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

AHHHHHH!!!!
Avril's next album is gonna be called THE BEST DAMN THING! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! -jumps around like a maniac-
At first, she spelt it the best dam thing haha clever Avril guess she was doing a pun on her album name :] Like the bonez (under my skin) concert tour!
Her first single is going to be called "Girlfriend"!
"I keep getting asked about my record and what it is called ... so I wanted to give u guys all the info directly ... I'm calling the record The Best Dam Thing, and the first single is called 'Girlfriend,' " Lavigne wrote. "The single comes out February and the record in April. I promise you guys will love this record, it is my favorite one!!! And I can't wait!!!!! It is really fast, fun, young, bratty, aggressive, confident, cocky in a playful way ... all the good stuff."-- AVRIL.

Ok so my official thoughts on this as a fan--
I have to admit that I'm a little less than thrilled. Why? Because the album name sounds a teeny weeny bit cheesy. Haha but it's definitely full of attitude like Avril! I just hope it doesn't end up being all fast-paced songs like he wasn't. Of course i love he wasn't , but i much prefer nobody's home and i'm with you. Avril shines the most when singing slower more sentimental songs.. like Keep Holding On ! Nevermind.. it must be fantastic since she says it won't disappoint. Sadly she only has 3 slow songs (from bandaids.com) but it will def. be fantasticismo! :D OMGosh can't wait! :)

'Nough fanatic stuff. Ah but can you believe it!

In the end, went with my mum to Malaysia. Asked Valerie along at first but her mother is skeptical of us. Haha don't blame her. So they're going for their own family trip there. Anyway, it's quite weird to go shopping with your mum and friend in another country. Or maybe I'm just strange.

Good and bad news. Bad news first. I look like a maid! No offence to them, really, they are the most hardworking, good-natured people. But my hair really looks like a lump of mud plastered on my head. It's neat, but ugh. Nevermind.. I shouldn't be worrying about my hair at a time when civil wars are occuring. Hm that sounded quite wrong. I guess we have to separate our insignificant little lives from the bigger things happening in the world. If not, all our posts would just be depressing and angsty.

My mother rocks XD Heh 'cos actually I was supposed to subsidise less than half the amount for the guitar, but now I don't :) And I got the flappy Converse shoes! I usually have to save up before buying these kind of things. I won't expect much spending money in NZ from my mum, but I shall pester my dad ;D FANGIRL ALERT! there's this corridor-side stall selling all types of fangirl stuff. Korean drama stuff, Korean/Jap/Chi actor stuff, even Avril stuff !! I was eyeing the KJH book thing, could buy it for kewei then beg her to lend me, but I'm not that crazy. My craziness will be reserved for Avril's next album!;) In fact, I plan on buying her album as gifts for people, even though chances are i'd go broke after a few cds. In the end, I got 2 laminated avril cards. One for myself and one for my avril-crazy senior. But now I feel like keeping both for myself-.-

Really must refrain from wasting time here. It has turned into a daily obligation. Next few days will be spent packing for my trip (byebye class chalet=(!)and on CCA.

I am so amused by my cousin! She dislikes reading my posts as she claims that they are "cheem". If I'm not wrong, cheem means kinda hard to understand and i take that as a compliment. I wish i could write more introspectively, but it doesn't seem good to air your views at a public place. Besides, it's better to express yourself through other outlets. Actually, I have a few posts hidden in my laptop, they're about more important things than my trivial life. Sadly, blogger didn't work when I wanted to publish them. A twist of fate, perhaps?

Bang, dead! My mind swerves away from work, like a nasty unavoidable reflex. Like all forms of homework is taboo. At least I TRIED, they can't blame me if I hand up poor-quality work . At least I'm handing up work at all. Well judging from the friends who I have talked with, seems like no one else has done much work. Can't make excuses even if I want. I have been decidedly free... up till now, that is. A vacation right at the end of the holiday is absolutely horrible. Still won't have recovered from the sight of frolicking sheep and .. (what else is NZ famous for anyway?) by the time school comes round. Haha maybe I'll even fall asleep counting sheep.

5:52 AM

Monday, December 18, 2006

How unlucky. My mum's car got hit by some woman driver. Now we can't go to Malaysia tomorrow! Argh. I really needed that haircut and shoes. My guitar lesson got cancelled today. I've only had 2 lessons! How am I supposed to be learning anything productive!? It wasn't the teacher's fault though.

My verdict on Eragon is that it deserves3 stars. 3 is considered good enough, thanks to the fabulous special effects. If it were not for Saphira the majestic dragon, it would get 2.5 stars. I'm a tough critic yeah. It was so Harry Potter meets LOTR. The most exciting scene was when eragon changed, you could see practically all the girls straining their necks forward. I'm not sure about the story, but with my limited fantasy knowledge, I could tell that it was very cliche. Melodramatic music, evil laughter, ugly monsters... But it was entertaining enough. Fine, it wasn't too bad... at least it had some sort of storyline and Sienna whatshername is very pretty. Avril's song was ONLY played during the rolling credits=( No one seemed to take notice! Even when i purposely said Avril very loudly.

That girl is evil. She made her brothers sit really far away from us. But that saved us some potential embarrassment too.Grace and i got each other wallets for X'mas. She got something from The wallet shop and I got an Emily one which I've been eyeing for ages. Handphones are the ultimate tool of destruction. Grace just got her handphone and she was messaging away. Ooh my dad just told me that it's not "to sms" since sms stands for short message system. so we can't use it as a verb. Hmm.. all along my English has been bad ;D Sometimes, technology seems to take over our lives. Pretty sad. I can't even remember the time when I was handphone-less and just being me.

I want one of those paperchase notebooks! Then I can doodle on the train when my iPod runs low on batt. During camp, I remember writing some random lines at PLC. Inspired by adorable rachel chng who actually keeps a journal.

--
How is it that you can click so well with someone but spend so many years with someone else without knowing their true character?

4:24 AM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

MERRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! (IN ADVANCE) i'm just being paranoid that i won't get to wish people that. Ha but if you're lucky, i may have sent you a card! :D

My aunt gave me a Kino voucher. I was browsing through the lit/bestseller section. I wanted to get perfume ( a supposedly erotic thriller about a murderer). Think I've been too influenced by My Psychosis. Anyway, what I really wanted was Lisey's story. Way above and beyond my budget for anything (except avril stuff). Got it in the end cos the paperback's not coming out anytime soon. A whooping $35! On a book=[ Which is obviously a very good one. & i'm not suddenly into horror/fantasy but it looks a bit jodi picoulty (deaths and stuff). I didn't feel the pinch much, but it's really one of the biggest purchases I've made in a long time. Well, we all deserve to treat ourselves once in a while.

I'm not the only person going to NZ at X'mas time. Terri is also going! Drats.. she's coming back one day before me and she's leaving 9 days earlier. If we are lucky, our paths will cross. We're both going to the southern island and the same places! How coincidental. Oh and the places Jamie went for her US trip were the same as mine. Either Singaporeans are an uncreative bunch or the world is just too tiny.

When have my parents started to nag me about homework? Oh, this week. This is quite weird as I usually finish most work in the first few weeks, but this holiday there's much too much. & I'm not gonna waste my hols on dorky work.

I've learnt my lesson not to read novels which have been made into movies before watching the movie (eg. Da vinci code) as it takes away all the fun. The movie really paled in comparison with the book. That's why Evelyn's Eragon is collecting dust. I can't wait to hear the theme song tomorrow, I shall clutch onto my cousin's arm and squeal with glee. I shall let the whole world know that it is the song by the great Avril. The best song in the world! No one to fangirl with me over Avril=[ Can you even fangirl over a girl? Anyway it's normal enough to fangirl over deathnote right..

3:27 AM

Saturday, December 16, 2006

For once, I completely agree with Kewei. The more you listen to a song like Keep Holding On, the more it grows on you. No, I loved it the first time I heard it. Fine, I'm biased. & I'm definitely watching Eragon. It's one of the first songs that has a real tear-inducing ability. Sniff. even for someone like me :D

To go for class chalet or not? Honestly, I would be dying to go if I knew my class better. As in, we all know that it's gonna be that group sticking together and that group hanging out. Don't pretend you don't know what I mean. 307 rocks anyhow. By a pure stroke of coincidence, we have guides farewell preparation on that day. I am in a big dilemma. Still have a lot of homework to do, and the worst thing is that I'll be overseas after Xmas and have no time to do anything. When I reach back, i'll be jetlagging and the next day, watching Deathnote 2.Anyway, next year I'll definitely go for class chalet. Jolynn's right, it's more fun when you know your class better. If not we'll just be hanging out in the usual cliques which is kinda not the point.

I seem to be in a generous mood now. Christmas cards (ok that's quite normal), and I'm wondering whether to write testimonials for some seniors as I'm not going for farewell. Breaking my anti-friendster pact. It's not like I know them that well, but they are after all a cool bunch of people.

I have $50! What should I get? CSI:NY season 2 or converse shoes :O
Anyway, I know what you all can get me for Xmas.. which is totally free! Go to my ficpress site (linked down there) and read & review my poems and stuff! I'll be extremely happy! Say all types of bad things if you want, I just want reviews. Ok I know I'm pathetic but my ficpress acct is so dead now.

Tagboard replies:
Jolyn foo: Hello fellow gob! Yep, I know she knows you too. Heh.
valeriee: hey? reply to my text message!
kewei: Baka! can u say more interesting things? Aw but it's hard, seeing as you're baka and all :))
jamie: I removed it! WTH why do u always call me kyna ng. Do i have to remidn you that i don't really like being called by my surname? Yeah it's a bit girly, but it's nice! Anyway, i'm not girly!

4:18 AM

4 days of sleep deprivation, surviving on 2+ hours of sleep. Feeling like falling asleep at any second and having to work our asses off. But it wasn't all that bad. Even though everyone said that it would be better if we were campers, being the camp committee was still fun. It wasn't a fantastic experience, but it was worth remembering. Very glad that it's over! Sometimes I wonder why guides have to be so meticulous, haha but we'll probably be more prepared to take on administrative stuff. Everything has to be planned to be a T and if you get a single detail wrong, you may just get a scolding from the teacher. Very intimidating.

Smearing chilli sauce and throwing water bombs at people during Sabotage, cockroaches appearing in our rooms everyday, Shaowin the exterminator chopping off the cockroaches heads, Valerie's mumbling that was really hilarious, CAMPFIRE (the only event where we actually participated)- there's something about those flames that being out the nice side of people, mealtimes speaking Chinese with vic-ki, rachel, ant, huimin, jolynn etc [can u believe I actually spoke Chinese!!-yanne must be really proud], cleaning out the camp stall with shaowin and cloudie for over 2 hours slacking XD, when oli and I were in the toilet and the lights went off and we were in pitch darkness until cloudie rescued us, mingyi and I laughing over
valerie's leg sticking up at an acute angle to the ground and her mumbling, us screaming at mingyi's hair during night treasure hunt, slacking a lot cos I only have to do stuff after camp, jolynn and I looking for things to do and making random comments all the time, A
lot more. Mostly of exhaustion.

Anyway, living with people really makes you know them quite a bit better. Even for a short period of time. I'm just a bit disappointed in someone. I don't know how to explain it. It's not like she did anything wrong but the variations in her behaviour irk me. Sometimes, I feel that I don't stand up for myself enough. I just let things get to me too much. I'm not going to go into cliche shit about how I am hurting cos that's so overly emotional, but really, certain friends
are NOT worth having. Don't subject yourself to putting up with someone just because you're scared she'll be mean if you do sth against her wishes. I shouldnt even have the authority to say this, cos I am one of those people who will give in and give up.

Shaowin also surprised me, usually she's so sarcastic (especially to me), but she displayed her .. friendlier side. Got to know batch mates who I didn't know really well (blame it on the cliques again).

I am extremely ecstatic to be back in my lovely, comfy home. I love my maid! I think I lost a bit of weight cos my shorts were dropping off even more than usual. Yay! Ate vegetarian food mostly when the normal food didn't look nice. Precisely why I am called a SELECTIVE
vegetarian. The quality must be nice too!

I spent the whole of yesterday night writing personalised Xmas cards. It's more meaningful than emailing. How much does postage to China cost? I'm only doing this cos I didn't only sent a few cards last year. My hands ache=[ But it's worth it. Oh and i got a card from
Audrie! Flattered that she recalls me.

Plans for Next Week:
mon- eragon with grace and maybe her brother!
tue- Malaysia! with mum and maybe valerie.
wed- guides plc:( , ikea tampines with dora+jofoo
thu-guides preparation for farewell ( so sad that i wont be going, i am gonna miss certain seniors)
fri- asking audrie and maybe jofoo. Homework day!

I only have myself to blame for not setting aside time to do homework.
When school arrives, the shit will hit. & we'll be splattered to nothing but bits.

1:51 AM

Friday, December 15, 2006

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

From Baihui.
In no particular order,
1. Keep Holding On By Avril Lavigne!!! (ERAGON OST)
2. The Piano Instrumental Song in Howl's Moving Castle!
3. At the Beginning, Anastasia OST (I loved this way before we sang it during campfire :D)
4. Lips of an Angel - Hinder (Probably listened to this 100+ times!)
5. How you remind me- Nickelback
6. Sirius by KJH/ the "we are stupid" song in princess hours!
7. Panic at the Disco songs (way catchy!)

5 people to do this:
1. Kewei
2. Yanne
3. Jamie
4. Valerie
5. Grace

* I realise that most of these songs don't contain very meaningful lyrics (except Avril's), and well, I like songs more for their catchy tunes. Hmm my song taste needs to mature a lot more.

10:33 PM

Saturday, December 09, 2006

I'm reading A Home at the End of the World now, thanks to Baihui. I love this book, it's the type where you have to read between the lines to figure out the intricacies of the relationships. It was made into a movie too.

It's a melancholy Sunday. This is perfect weather for some angsty poetry. I was just browsing through Fictionpress, and there are some really affecting poems. Haunted and riveted by them. Somehow, it made me remember Stanford and that sadness I felt when we walked out of HCI. Like Baihui said, there seems to be a hole in our hearts. Memories of us walking into HCI and taking the stupid long way before realising the shortcut, Jessica and her witty offhand remarks, irritating Evelyn with Avrilist remarks, the 2 days when Jamie and I sat in for Creative Writing and were told to write a bad sentence and we had to rack our brains and Jamie came up with this sadistic scenario, sitting with Audrie during Expos lessons and laughing with her. Having both old and new friends in the same place as you is a comforting thought. I miss writing essays!

In case anyone like Yanne thought I was being too optimistic about camp, I'm actually ambivalent. I cannot imagine sleeping for only 6 hours and waking up freezing in the morning. I still remember the time when valerie shouted weird sentences in the middle of the night and Mingyi and I were so frightened that we turned away. & we still have bloody testwork! They are taunting me, I know. I bid you guys farewell, spend the rest of your holiday fruitfully and start on homework if you haven't.

10:19 PM

Siti, Audrie( the whiny bimbo) and me!

Group photo! the girl 4th from the right is in sec one! So cute right!

Merde, Baka and Stripper!

Us looking dumb again.

Ahh, sweet memories of Stanford! I'll miss the programme cos it really helped my writing. Except argumentative. & I shall start becoming an avid ficpress-er.

So I have guides camp on Monday, which means hardly any updating next week, unless we miraculously get to use a computer. it's gonna be fun! Mostly. Hopefully. I've brought some shocks and i hope to scare people at night:D First time I'm looking forward to camp, even though it'll be hectic. I've packed my luggage and decided to use a suitcase so i'll be rollin' into camp. I'm I/c for a lot of stations so i think i will just drop dead by the time camp is over. Bringing along a camera to capture funny memories and weird people.

So... this is it. My last post before Metamorphosis (the camp name)... it's also the name of Hilary's first album:( I will come back in one piece and not fall sick! Don't miss me, people!

1:11 AM

Friday, December 08, 2006

Lying there silently at the corner
Enveloped in a delicate plastic blanket.
Wind sweeps past suddenly
Ruffling its numerous folds

Like fields of golden wheat
Riding on the lilt of nature
It quivers then freezes,
Trembles then wheezes.

In that brief moment,
Creases and wrinkles line it.
Time is at a standstill
It has become the center of the universe.

Surreptitiously, its tail peeks out
Almost as if it were too shy
Playing childish peek-a-boo
Its heart not in the game.

Soft & strong,
It proclaims.
Taunting it mercilessly
Revealing the raw scars underneath.

5:03 AM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Before I start posting, I shall dedicated my eternal gratitude to my dear friend Jamie for having unbounded generousity. You see, she is posting this for me because my computer is screwed.

So that gives it away. Never mind, anyway Kyna's password is very very very gross. Before she starts having thoughts of executing a public massacre on me, let's get to the post proper.

Wednesday--
Stanford again. Basically, my whole life now revolves around Stanford.
I am really sad that this week is argumentative essay week as compared
to the personal essay week. I love personal essays – as we can
actually express ourselves. Of course, there are those weird people
who prefer argumentative. For people who cannot abide by a fixed
structure, I totally support creative writing.

Today is extremely blogworthy cos after Stanford I went off to Orchard
with (get this) Kewei, Baihui and Jamie. That's not surprising
considering they sort of know each other since we are all in Stanford.
But imagine a pair of 201 classmates with a pair of 307 classmates.
Maybe I'm just being weird, but it was really cool having 2 pairs of
your friends out together and trying to interact. Produces funny
results. I was originally supposed to meet Yanne with Jamie to DO
WORK, but our plans were foiled. Like, who wants to study after
Stanford?

First time going out with 2 groups of my friends who don't know each
other (except for the bit stated above). I think I did a pretty good
job making sure nobody felt left out :D Of course, everyone was
honoured to be in the presence of yours truly! It was an
accomplishment to make them erm interact because they are a totally
different group of people. Baihui and Kewei are the sarcastic, comic
crazy sort. Though it was a bit tiring skipping from pair to pair.
Everyone was pretty chummy and friendly, so it turned out to be a fun
outing. Deck the Halls was too late, so we boycotted the movie idea.

I am so proud of myself for coming up with the most ingenious idea –
forcing Yanne and Baihui to pierce their ears! For once, Kewei was all
we must let them make their own decision (so not her usual self),
while Jamie and I were trying to persuade them to pierce. It would be
much better and less scream-inducing than watching a sadistic horror
movie. They wouldn't budge. Then Jamie, Kewei and I tried to persuade
one another to get another pair of earholes. Obviously, it didn't
work.

Shopped around randomly. Since Kewei and Yanne are crazy over Korean
actors, we brought them to MISE. Baihui exhibited asexual behaviour,
much to my chagrin. Since her LJ display pic is that of a guy, I was
expected some major fangirling. We didn't find any pictures of
dachangjin's boyfriend, and the ones of KJH are ugly. Kewei is such a
copycat. Jamie had a vaguely amused expression on her face- coupled
with a tinge of disgust. She's the only person I know who doesn't know
any names of Korean guys. Pathetic!

Me and Baihui and now official CSI:NY fans! I like the sound of
fangirls but there isn't anyone to fangirl over in CSI:NY. Except for
Flack and Danny, Baihui says. I agree! CSI:NY is really a smart show
and what sets it apart is the character development. There's this
actress who looks like Angelina Jolie, but with brains. Brains and
beauty make a lethal combination.

I blew my money on Famous Amos cookies, lime juice and fries. Must
make up for the time lost when I had that horrible sore throat.

Goodness, Jamie says I like to gossip. I guess it's partly true, and
it's a very bad habit. But I think it's more of me liking to hear
about people's views on other people. But if I like to gossip, then
almost everyone else does as we discuss people we know and are curious
about in conversations with out friends.

Oh back to Expository. Yeah so I chatted with Audrie again. She keeps
saying that I'm lame-.- I feel like I'm interacting with a primary
schooler. Oh and she has a lot of fate with the person sitting in
front of her. They should just go and get married already. Too bad
that she did not accept my dare. It's really cool being able to talk
(naturally) with someone who I have no prior connections with. I'm
really shy, didn't you know? She shares my disdain for CCs too:) Hope
to meet up with her and Jofoo together, it'll be amusing seeing how
they interact with each other. I'm so weird.

I don't really think this course is helping me much. Perhaps it gives
me the chance to write, but my writing skills are still as bad as
ever. One of the remarks I got was that I make too many personal
attacks. I'm quite surprised.. I guess because I'm so UNaggressive in
real life, I express my anger on paper. My self-esteem would have been
ripped to shreds if not for the other essay which had pretty good
comments. Anyway, the main point is that I don't like organization and
structure ;D

--
Look at this! Got this from Jiamin.
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
(This is the result of my colour preference for black and red)
Jodi Picoult said in her book that red and black are SUICIDAL colours.
OMG! I guess I like them cos they are gothic-y and more
non-conformational colours. Of course, they are the colours on Avril's
2nd album which is the main reason. Really, I'm not suicidal.. I'm
mildly satisfied with my life as it is. Oh and artists who draw
tongues show signs of sexual abuse.

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting
back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could
be left in peace.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are
going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You
exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and
difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of
authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being
made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison
but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid
direct confrontation at all costs.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are
becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that
you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that
you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature -
perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over
enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful
thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes
towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop
into suspicion and distrust.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man
was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears
to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit
yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical
discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are
apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to
every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo.
There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think
about it - and let go.

My goodness, this is slightly true but not really. Just cause I like
red and black doesn't make me a rebellious, freaky person.

Thursday--
Yay we are going to watch princess bride tomorrow. Last day, so we are
having ceremony. Aud and I are giving jessica a card and present.
Shall bring my cam to take pics. Blah okay lotsa lotsa things to go
and work on. Ouch, my braces hurt badly! New colours- red and green
for what else? X'mas! :D

4:20 AM

Monday, December 04, 2006

Apparently, I'm a crazy eccentric fun person who's totally obsessed with Avril. According to my past Friendster testimonials. I was just scrolling through them, in the first time I've been on Friendster all year. It really made me smile. In a good way.

Yay I've made a new friend who knows Jofoo well, she's got called Audrie. Weve got lots in common.. only childs, biochemlit subject combi, we hate bimbos (which is quite universal really). Looking forward to chatting more with her and spreading the love of Avril;D

I love Jessica! How can one not love a teacher when she bestows upon us such saccharine sweet comments? She actually liked my essay.. To give you an idea, I ended up in prison after suffering from domestic abuse and killing my husband impulsively? And i ended up in science as a profession. Because I wasn't good enough to be a writer and unadventurous to be a writer. I do hope my life does not end up like that.

Anyway, I'm gonna arrange more movie marathons with fake food people;D We need good intellectual TV like CSI:NY to get us in the mood for major brain work next year. Arghs, gonna do some homework before my favourite Amazing Race! I support the dumb blondes mwaha since everyone hates them, let 'em show them that not all blondes are dumb.

//
The blondes are out! They are not helping my blondes are not dumb theory. Blondes are airheaded, but they exploit this to their advantage- look how rich Paris Hilton is becoming. I am loathe to admit that I think Nothing in this World is quite a catchy song=( Ohno everyone will never want to read my blog ever again. Kewei said the guy in the vid is cute. She has a thing for younger guys. Maybe she will run away with that 9 year old genius in her stanford math class. Haha baihui likes Flack from CSI, and man, she's got good taste. He's of Italian-Irish (this is questionable) descent. Asexual people have great taste!

Someone teach me how to solve rubix cubes in one minute flat.
Yay looking forward to guitar festival with shaowin!:D

4:26 AM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

I was surprised when I opened the window of my blog and discovered an outpouring of comfort. If you consider a few tags a lot of comfort. Anyway, I appreciate the concern. I am neither sad nor suicidal, thanks very much. It’s just good to vent your frustrations sometimes, cannot always be some happy weird freak. Really, I just felt quite strongly towards certain people’s behaviour and that’s all. A form of balance is needed after all, which is why I’m gonna start on some really angsty stories soon, thanks to my inspiration from Picoult novels.

Stanford is as dire as usual. But I admit that I like writing essays. There was one where we had to imagine ourselves at the age of 70+, and I said that I would be abused by my maniacal husband. & end up in prison after stabbing him in the stomach. HAHAHA. I have this premonition that I will end up leading a very weird life. Although I most probably won’t get married and I definitely won’t end up killing someone! It was more fun writing from the inside of a prison cell than from some retiring home.

Currently, I have a new obsession… CSI NY!!!! I don’t see how I could have wasted my time on Korean dramas which are oh so boring when CSI was there all along. Always been quite interested in CSI Miami, but the character development is weak and the blonde/redhead main lead is off-putting. Courtesy of Baihui, who brought it over on Saturday for us to watch. Now I understand why the girl is willing to spend $100+ of her Christmas fund on it. I will probably get it from Malaysia. The unpirated version.

Crime is so bloody cool! Not the results of it, but the process of how people trace the perpetrator and the DNA bits. There was an episode where they dissected a rat to find a bullet inside. The dead people are all fake – they are actually living, breathing people. In one episode, the stage make-up was very convincing.. the girl’s face was all mouldy and green and decomposing.

So we watched 7 episodes of CSI:NY the whole day. Rachel T, Kewei, Baihui and yours truly. There are even books on CSI, have to read.

8:42 PM